3.28.2008

the next morning

so with all i've said in the last post about not being too personal - here comes something personal.

last night was rough.

i don't know if i just am the worst person at giving first impressions or what. but i guess i've left a not so great impression at the last place i was and i'm not sure how to deal with it from here on out.

it's hard going into a place with so many expectations and perceptions put on you already - and then to let all those people down....how is one to recover?

i don't know - maybe it's a wake-up call that i need to figure some things out about myself.

but it's hard when it's so bad that the person closest to you doesn't want to talk.

3.27.2008

introduction

first post.

second or third blog.

i've actually tried to start this blog many times before. but the pressure of a title and then a website was too much pressure for me to handle, so i avoided the whole thing. but with all that's apparently spectacular about blogging, i forced myself to sit down and make the hard decisions and commit.

and this is actually the second time i've written this particular blog. it's just so much pressure, i think i really just need to let go.

sometimes things like blogs and notes on facebook, make me feel a little uncomfortable because they seem to share so much and so deep into their personal lives. but i guess maybe that's just an outlet for people, and i shouldn't judge - as much as i wouldn't want them to judge me. 

so that being said, i've deleted the second half of this posting and am rewriting as we speak - or rather as i type.

my hopes and aspirations for this particular blog are probably similar to that of most people. i mean why do we start blogs and such? i think in our current society we're looking for an outlet. an outlet to speak, feel, be heard, comforted, and desired. too often we find ourselves looking for those things in static relationships that comprise only of conversations over aim, a text, facebook, or email. 

or maybe we just have a large network of people that want to hear random thoughts about our observations of the day-to-day.

either way, dear reader, i hope this blog offers you a chance to see the world the way someone else sees it.

and maybe if my thoughts mean something more to you - we can grab a cup of coffee and discuss it in person.